Not on a Diet

I am not on a diet. That said, I am trying to focus on my health this summer, and I figure this is as good a time as any to cut out some of the extra sugar and fat in my life. So I'm working out each day, eating healthy food all day, eating yummy rich chocolate at dessert, and not eating within 2 hours of going to bed. During the day, I try to only eat good things - things like fruits, veggies, protein, and good carbs. This means that I am hungry most afternoons. It's funny what hunger will do to you. This afternoon, I was so hungry that I considered walking to the grocery store, buying chocolate chip cookie ingredients, then eating half a batch of raw dough. All pretty rational, right up to that last point! At a certain point, I can satisfy my hunger with a salad and some fruit. Or a hard boiled egg. But after a certain point, my appetite gains its own personality. I picture Cookie Monster, inside my gullet, hollering "I WANT COOKIES!" I find myself thinking of different ways to eat cookies without knowing it. My brain becomes a devious prankster looking for ways to get around my rational self. And of course, this is why I'm not on a diet. If I were on a diet, the first thing I would do is eat every single forbidden food. My covenant group was talking about food logs this week, and Erin suggested that a food log would make a person feel guilty and stop eating badly. Not so much for me. I just figure that eating 8 cookies a day is about 1 serving, and therefore quite reasonable.